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14 November 2010

Stupid Stupid Terrible Self-Loathing


We all want to be her.

A long time ago in a terrible, underfunded, South Mississippi high school, I read some books. I had some teachers who were pretty great, despite their station, and who truly believed in what they were doing. They were great and I owe them a lot. They showed me a panorama of shit that was so far out of my depth and was so unfathomable to a ridiculously poor child. I didn't know shit, didn't have horizons for shit, and, if not for them, was destined to be in shit, a cop, a day laborer, a goddamn, beer swilling, no idea having motherfucking loser.

I owe them a lot.

I wrote a novel that I'm sure is pretty shitty, but at least I wrote it.